Maybe I should stop seeing him. Whether he likes it or not. Maybe I should let him deal with his own life right now. And let him decide what he really wants. Well, he has decided already. He just cannot start moving already. Maybe it will help for us not to see each other for now, so we can see things clearly, so we can have motivation to hurry for the future so we can be together already.

I don't know... my boat is starting to sink...