I am not like any of these mistresses

Today, Ive been watching two consecutive "mistress" movies. Cried buckets because I can very well relate to the lines, situations, confrontations, emotions, lies, deceit. I experienced everything. Things unimaginable. Pains unimaginable. Suffering that has never even been named yet. I had them. But the only thing I cannot relate to these two movies is the fact that the mistresses never ended up with the love of their life. I am still together with him. In spite of all that has happened to us, we are still together. He still wants me. Sticks around. And building our future together. On the outside, people would see that he left his wife and two children for me. But I cannot really accept that. I didn't destroy any family. Come to think of it, he also destroyed my own family. But this isn't anymore a question of who did who. Like the characters in the movies, people can just be careless. "Sometimes people do horrible things when they’re hurt." This is how affairs usually start. It how it started with us. And we realized that somewhere along the way, but we chose to rise above all this and become better than we already were. It is still a work in progress. We are a work in progress. He has already hurt me a thousand times. At one point I saw a monster in him. But I'm still here am I not. Because he is still here. Amidst all this darkness he is still around. I am not like any mistress that men use and then left to die of loneliness. Maybe that's worth enough reason for me to stay as well.