All alone I cry. After everybody has gone, I cry. And cry. And cry. No one truly knows the pains this relationship has caused me. I cannot tell it to anybody. I cannot tell everything to anybody. I have to suffer this alone. I have to protect my son from all this. There are times when it's just too much to bear. But I have to protect myself from getting overwhelmed by thoughts lest it will cause me ugly things to think about. Right now, I feel so helpless. So hopeless. When will this going to end? I feel like a zombie. Living dead. Tani mapatay na lang gid sya tuod. Ano pa di iya purpose sa kalibutan? Para pasakitan ko asta manigulang ko? Gaba ko na ni guro kay hambal man nila kerida ko. Gin guba ko pamilya nya. Yes, I guess I deserve this. Sige sigeha na lang a. Bring it on. Halaha. Parumatay na lang ko. Asta ako man mapatay na. 

Pano ta pa ka palanggaon? Sipot sipot na gid ko. Ako man kinanglan sina. Have you ever thought of that? Have you ever thought of me? Kon ano man ya gakatabo sa akon? You're too busy looking after yourself nga nalipatan mo na nga ako traumatized man, in pain man, scared man. If only you have the slightest idea how scared I am, how scared I have been. Indi na ko sang amo ni nga life. San-o pa ni matapos. Asta san-o silutan ko sang Diyos tungod lang kay kerida ko.