Look at me I'm filthy

Gusto ko mag kaon durian. Gusto ko mag kadto sa Korean Restaurant. Gusto ko mag bakal new phone, mag shopping mga bayo kag shoes para sa bata ko. Gusto ko epa tiles ang salug sa balay. Gusto ko magpa takod aircon. Gusto ko mag travel, mag relax, mag overnight sa resort. Gusto ko mag kaon talaba sa Pta Taytay. Gusto ko mag kadto sa prayer house. Gusto ko magpa massage kag magpa spa. Gusto ko magpa opera sa akon keloid. Gusto ko magkuha timbang kag mag basa libro all day on weekends. Gusto ko magpa print sang akon book and launch it formally. Gusto ko mag bakal salakyan, learn driving and go on a road trip.

This and a lot more. For now I choose to tell these things into the dark night because everyone else in this world right now is so busy trying to get whay they want, too. Maybe one day I will be deserving of these simple things. I hope I am deserving. I've screwed up big time. I did things that many of those who know me would never ever think I could do. I own up to these mistakes. I want to be better, to rid myself of the past and its curse. I want to be clean enough to deserve all these things. I am so dirty. I am so filthy. I have been really bad. I need a good bath.