He's gone again. He's going back to where all of us can be safe for now. He made an effort yesterday to make it up to me, I know he knew what was that all about. I find it endearing, his ability to surprise me and make me feel like a queen. Too many different emotions are cramped in my heart right now, I really do not know how to deal with each of them, or all of them at the same time. If not for his temper, he is a great guy. Without his temper I can consider him perfect enough for me already. If only we can be happy already. If only we can have at least a short respite from all this pain and struggle. Lord have mercy on us.