Hush my heart

I want all this hate to be over. I do not like myself hating so much, resenting so much, hurting so much. I hate because I hurt. So much. I hate because they hurt me. So much. They do not know anything about me and how much I have suffered. And yet they keep kicking on me, spitting on me. That's why I hate them. So much. That's why I keep on with this revenge. That's why I cannot stop. But I am tired already. My heart is so tired already from all this hating. I wish I can stop. Please Lord grant me the grace to stop. I want to live my life the way that it was designed to be. Please help me. I want to stop. I just want to rest already. I know that they are not stopping either. I just feel that I have to defend myself. No else can do that for me. No one else. Even this, the things that I keep in my heart, no one else is there to listen and understand. I am basically alone. I do not tell anybody because I do not want to tire them of my presence. I do not want to be an inconvenience. So I keep it to myself.